“Identity”
Identity – i·den·ti·ty /ˌīˈden(t)ədē/ noun 1. the fact of being who or what a person or thing is. 2. a close similarity or affinity.
In this vulnerable series of work, I was tasked to picked a moment that I thought best described what things, events, or relations with the world around me shape me into who I am today… Although its a moment in time I’m MOST quiet and private about… It was certainly the time where I had to Start. All. Over. Again. I had completely lost myself in a grueling, toxic, abusive almost 7 year relationship. After fleeing my old apartment at 2 in the morning, I found myself uncertain about life more than ever. Who was I? What was I going to do next? Was my situation ever going to get better? Along with all the uncertainty around me and within myself, I also had a choice to make. I could either let my past eat whatever was left of me or I could let go of it all and rebuild myself into the person that I was in love with before I got into that relationship. Although it’s much easier said than done, I have been slowly reshaping myself into a woman I can finally be proud of. I’ve been putting myself and my art out into the world, allowing myself to be young and have fun again, rekindling relationships that had been damaged or lost, and I amazingly, and unexpectedly found my souls partner and my “person”.
This series portrays that chapter in my life in three self portraits:
“Waiting” – My lowest point.
“Release” – Having the courage, will, and forgiveness to let the past go.
“Anew” – My physical, emotional, and spiritual rebirth.
Alyssa Lopez 